Tuesday, May 19, 2009

"Behind the make up and smile, I'm just a girl who wants the world"





         

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We are born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us, it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others."

And hey, to you who are striving to break the moulds of tradition for a better way, just hold your head up high, square up to that challenge before you and get inspired by the time-honored creed: YES WE CAN!


 

 

WHEN OBSESSION TAKES OVER

“Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) ruins the lives of thousands. But what triggers it? Lets investigate….”


Ever left the house and wondered whether you really switched off that iron or locked the front door properly? If so you’ll know how annoying it is to feel even slightly obsessive about something. But for the victims of OCD the situation is hundreds of times worst.

Most sufferers of OCD can’t get through a single day without carrying out a long list of seemingly pointless tasks. Rituals such as excessive hand washing ,checking electrical sockets and tapping surfaces take on a massive but irrational level of importance. Victims fear that if they don’t carry out that ritual they will be contaminated by germs or something really terrible will happen to them or their loved ones. 


 

If you are thinking that sounds a bit like me don’t panic. Most people feel slightly superstitious about certain things like standing on cracks in the pavement and locking doors and many young children can have OCD like symptoms. For example a young child might always ask her mum to say good night a certain number of times or want her toys arranged in a certain way. This is usually perfectly normal. Its only when this pattern continues later on and starts to infringe on their lives that its time to worry. Young kids go through obsessive phase and many adults even have some obsessive habits and many adults even have certain habits like avoiding walking under ladder.

Still wondering what OCD really is?
OCD is practically an anxiety disorder characterized by intrusive thoughts that produce uneasiness, apprehension, fear, or worry, by repetitive behaviours. Symptoms of the disorder include excessive washing or cleaning; repeated checking; aversion to particular numbers; and nervous rituals, such as opening and closing a door a certain number of times before entering or leaving a room. These symptoms can be alienating and time-consuming, and often cause severe emotional and financial distress. The acts of those who have OCD may appear paranoid and potentially psychotic. However, OCD sufferers are  generally found to recognize their obsessions and compulsions as irrational, and may become further distressed by this realization.
OCD is the fourth most common mental disorder, and is diagnosed nearly as often as asthma and diabetes mellitus. It is the disease of developed countries rather than that of developing but the increasing pace of modernization is making it no exception to our country too.In the United States, one in 50 adults suffers from OCD.Obsessivecompulsive disorder affects children and adolescents as well as adults. Roughly one third to one half of adults with OCD report a childhood onset of the disorder, suggesting the continuum of anxiety disorders across the life span. Although these signs are present in OCD, a person who exhibits them does not necessarily have OCD, and may instead have obsessivecompulsive personality disorder (OCPD) i.e. no clinical condition. Multiple psychological and biological factors may be involved in causing obsessivecompulsive syndromes.
Obsessions are thoughts that recur and persist despite efforts to ignore or confront them.People with OCD frequently perform tasks, or compulsions, to seek relief from obsession-related anxiety. Within and among individuals, the initial obsessions, or intrusive thoughts, vary in their clarity and vividness. People with OCD understand that their notions do not correspond  with reality; however, they feel that they must act as though their notions are correct.
In any case, the individual's reasoning is so idiosyncratic or distorted that it results in significant distress for the individual with OCD or for those around them. Excessive skin picking (i.e., dermatillomania) or hair plucking (i.e., trichotillomania) and nail biting (i.e., onychophagia) are all on the Obsessive-Compulsive Spectrum. Individuals with OCD are aware that their thoughts and behavior are not rational,but they feel bound to comply with them to fend off feelings of panic or dread.
Some common compulsions include counting specific things (such as footsteps) or in specific ways (for instance, by intervals of two) and doing other repetitive actions, often with atypical sensitivity to numbers or patterns. People might repeatedly wash their hands or clear their throats, make sure certain items are in a straight line, repeatedly check that their parked cars have been locked before leaving them, constantly organize in a certain way, turn lights on and off, keep doors closed at all times, touch objects a certain number of times before exiting a room, walk in a certain routine way like only stepping on a certain color of tile, or have a routine for using stairs, such as always finishing a flight on the same foot.This is considered as the compulsive part.Some people use compulsions to avoid situations that may trigger their obsessions.

People with OCD can use rationalizations to explain their behavior; however, these rationalizations do not apply to the overall behavior but to each instance individually. For example, a person compulsively checking the front door may argue that the time taken and stress caused by one more check of the front door is much less than the time and stress associated with being robbed, and thus checking is the better option. In practice, after that check, the person is still not sure and deems it is still better to perform one more check, and this reasoning can continue as long as necessary.

If you are worried that you might be the one with OCD, you should first ask yourself three things…..

  1.  1.Are your habits and rituals taking up more than an hour of your day?
  1.  2.Are they stopping you doing things you want to do?
            3. Are they causing you distress and annoyance?

OCD is found to start commonly during teenage years. Unfortunately many people hide it from their families which makes it more distressing and delays medical help which they could have received way earlier. Most common signs of OCDs are believed to be repeated hand washing ,mental rituals_such as doing things in threes, checking things many times and wanting everything to be arranged  “just so”.

OCD sufferers also tend to be plagued by unpleasant thoughts and ideas that they can’t get out of their mind.This is again the obsessive part of the disorder. Additionally victims feel that they have to do certain things like avoiding walking on cracks even if they don’t want to.This is the compulsive part.Sunaina 16, counts in her head all the time and can’t turn out her bedroom light unless she has counted to 20 beforehand. “I have to count everything” she says. “But its not like I am counting objects or anything.I count time,so when I do things like switching off the tv , I have to count to 5 before I can do it. I can’t really explain why I do this.Its just something that started happening to me few years ago and gradually got worst.”


Like Sunaina many OCD sufferers are baffled by the cause of their behaviour. “You just feel that unless you comply with your thoughts and fears,something terrible will happen.” “You feel that you’re forced to check something, eventhough you know you’ve done it already.Lots of people experience this to a certain extent but for the OCD sufferers it completely takes over their lives.”

For the sufferers ,obsessions are both very time consuming and extremely distressing.Because they feel that their strange routines just have to be performed or something bad will happen ,their daily life is upset and friendships become strained.

Obsessions with cleanliness are very common in OCD sufferers and its not usual for those with the condition to scrub their skin until it bleeds or to insist that their clothes are washed several times before they wear them.
There’s no doubt that OCD can make life extremely unpleasant for sufferers.For teenagers like Sunaina,coping with the disorder and keeping up with school work is particularly hard.Because sufferers have to perform so many rituals each morning.,they’re often left feeling stressed and irritable and to make matters worse,they often have to stay up late at night because of their OCD, and this makes them tired for the next day.

The most popular way of treating OCD is with therapy or medication.
One of the most common therapies is called Cognitive Behaviour Therapy (CBT).This particular type of therapy is centered around teaching sufferers how to recognize and change the way they behave.For example, they are taught to change the way they respond to any unwanted thoughts or obsessions.CBT also helps the sufferers to learn how to control their compulsions and deal with the terrible feelings of anxiety that OCD often causes.
During the treatment the OCD sufferers will be encouraged to confront the very things they are afraid of-this is a technique known as “habituation”.It is also common for patients to take medications at the same time as having this therapy and for lots of people as same.

Unfortunately there is no “Quick fix” for OCD sufferers and it is rare for the disorder to just disappear or sort itself out.Treatment usually takes time and a lot of patience,but it is worth all.All the experts stress that its very important to get help, so one must see his doctor if he’s afraid that he might have symptoms of OCD.The doctors emphasize that there is a greater chances of getting better with good treatment.In general most people can overcome this disorder but some don’t.These things are best tackled in the younger age itself.


The way you react to your loved one’s OCD symptoms has a big impact. Negative comments or criticism can make OCD worse, while a calm, supportive environment can help improve the outcome of treatment. There’s no point in scolding someone with OCD or telling the person to stop performing rituals. They can’t comply, and the pressure to stop will only make the behaviors worse. The best way to help a loved one cope with OCD is to be as kind and patient as possible. Praise any successful attempt to resist OCD, and focus attention on positive elements in the person’s life.And always
Remember

 “OCD is an illness not a choice”



(This article reflects my views on ‘Women empowerment and Gender Equality’ when I was a 10th grader)

   
Women empowerment and Gender Equality


According to Oxford, the word ‘Empowerment’ refers to authorize or enable and empowerment in the context of women portrays the meaning of accessibility of women in developmental fields.It means sharing equal responsibilities and providing them with equal rights.One should and especially the men should keep in mind that empowering women is to empower himself.Though the saying ‘If you educate a women she in turn educates the whole family,society,country and a wholesome global world’ is very popular in our society,it has proved to be limited just within our textbooks and sayings and it is really sad to learn that the status of women is still vulnerable in terms of educational,economic and social behaviour.

Two thirds of the world’s illiterate adults are female and over 65% of its poorest people are women and girls. Women account for more than 50% of the total population of Nepal.However they are not treated equally –discriminated against in social,economic as well as political spheres. The overall female literacy rate is as low as 25% and the effect of social structure on the lives of Nepali women cannot be overestimated. It is common to find girls and women suffering from high mortality rates. The traditional status and social constraints placed on her both inside and outside her home create hurdles for her, while making attempts to reach her destination and freedom prevalent society.In many societies,women are still considered as the machine for reproduction and nothing more.They are allowed to stay within 4 walls of the home only and depriving them from facing the competitive world and  are given limited access to positions of influence and power as well as fewer occupational entities and comparatively lower earnings than men. Women’s lives are shaped by customs that are centuries old. "May you be the mother of a hundred sons" is a common Hindu wedding blessing.

 


Though the Constitution guarantees equality to all its citizens ,discriminatory laws are still prevalent presenting a hurdle in the journey of struggle for Nepali women.Guaranting rights in law is important but what is equally important is the laws’ effective implementation.And to abolish all the ongoing inhuman treatment towards the women including the acquisition of witchcraft and wizardy, the first and foremost thing that we need to approach to is to create awareness amongst women by educating them and providing them with equal opportunities in all spheres of life.Women need support in all their varied roles as a girl,daughter,wife and mother.Elimination of gender biases and improved access to quality reproductive health care is a must  to empower women to raise an equal voice in decision making.And above all, improvement in the quality of life is inevitable for career development as it plays a crucial role in providing outstanding contribution for women empowerment and betterment of the society.

There are vast differences in education level of two sexes. Nepal has witnessed gender inequality from its early history due to its socio-economic and religious practices that resulted in a wide gap between the position of men and women in the society.The main reason that turns up in the vulnerable and underestimated women status is gender biases.It is only through education and raised awareness that attitude towards gender discrimination will change and it surely will motivate women to get united and fight for their rights.Gender equality-equal responsibilities and equal rights is a pre-requisite for development of women for equality at home and family along with gender justice in society as a whole.The problem of gender discrimination and violence against women and girls is a complex issue that cannot be solved by an individual alone so it needs a greater participation of women themselves first.The silent feelings in women themselves have led to gender discrimination so, its high time that we raise our voices to break the silence of gender discrimination for a fair,just and better world for women.









Widespread "perfection"
A beautiful fairy tale that always keeps you hating

As a warning, the following post was written in complete desperation. I have recently learned some very sobering truths from people that I love dearly. These truths have set in motion a quest within me to do whatever I can to make a change. Today is geared at something greater. Read it to the very end. I promise you will be affected in a way you have always needed to be. I spent more than twelve hours writing this post because its message is that important to me.
I wonder. Am I the only one aware that there is an infectious mental disease laying siege on us right now? There is a serious pandemic of "Perfection" spreading, and it needs to stop. Hear me out because this is something for which I am sure many of us have been  passionately and constantly hurting. It's a sickness that I've been trying to put into words for years without much success. It's a sickness that at times has left many hiding in dark corners and hating oneself.


"Perfection" is a daughter with certain disorder that keeps it hidden for years because she doesn't want to be the first among her family and friends to be imperfect. She would give anything to confront it, but she can't because then the "Perfect" people would hate her as much as she hates herself for it.

"Perfection" is a wife who feels trapped in a marriage to a lazy, angry, small man, but during talks with others tells the other wives how wonderful her husband always is. "Perfection" stops people from telling the truth, even to themselves. 


"Perfection" is when a son has a forbidden addiction, and despises himself for it. "Perfection" makes us believe that nobody else could understand what it is like to be weak and fall prey to the pressures of the world.

"Perfection" is a man who loathes himself for feeling unwanted attraction toward other men.

"Perfection" is a couple drowning in debt, but who still agree to that cruise with their friends because the words "we don't have the money" are impossible ones to push across their lips.
"Perfection" is a mom hating herself because she only sees that every other mom around her is the perfect mother, the perfect wife, and the perfect neighbor. I'd give anything to be Mrs. Mahima. Today she ran 34 miles, cooked six complete meals, participated in a two-hour activity with each of her seven children, hosted a marriage class with her husband, and still had time to show up for a home gathering. What this mom doesn't know is that Mrs. Mahima is also at home crying right now because the pressure to be "Perfect" never lets up.

"Perfection" is a dad hating himself because he can't give the same thing to his kids that other dads do, and then hates himself further because he takes his self-loathing out on his kids behind closed doors..

"Perfection" is a child hating herself because the boys at school call her fat, and when she goes home she tells her mom that school was fine. Her mom never stops to question why her daughter doesn't have any friends, because her mom doesn't want to think that anything might be less than "Perfect".

"Perfection" is a man feeling like a smaller man because his neighbor just pulled in with a new boat.

"Perfection" is a woman who is so overwhelmed that she thinks about killing herself daily. "Perfection" makes it so that she never will because of the things people will think if she does. How could I make my suicide look like an accident? If I kill myself, I don't want anybody knowing that I ever had any problems. She never stops to look at why she wants to do it, because healing means admitting imperfection.

"Perfection" is a man who everybody heralds as perfect, and inside he is screaming to be seen as the faulty human being that he always has been. Because to no longer be "the perfect one", that would be freeing.

"Perfection" is a woman having an affair because she's too afraid to confront the imperfection in her marriage.

Stop, and read that one once again.


"Perfection" is millions of innocent gurls today swallowing hundreds of pills because she just got the news that she was pregnant  and the shame was too much to bear. She was only attempting to cause a miscarriage. 24 hours later, she closed her eyes and never opened them again. She is dead because of the "Perfection" infecting those around her. We'd rather you die than shame this family. Thanks for taking care of that, honey. By the way, we'll do the right thing and make ourselves out to be the victims now. We have to. We're infected with "Perfection".

I could go on. This is all a small sampling of the disease called "Perfection". You have brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, extended family members, neighbors, friends, and children who are ALL these things, yet none of us will ever know. "Perfection" is a hideous monster with a really beautiful face. And chances are you're infected. The good news is, there is a cure.

Be real.



Embrace that you have weakness. Because everybody does. Embrace that your body is


not perfect. Because nobody's is. Embrace that you have things you can't control. We all have a list of them.

Here's your wake-up call:

You aren't the only one who feels worthless sometimes.

You aren't the only one who took your frustrations out on your children today.

You aren't the only one who isn't making enough money to support your lifestyle.

You aren't the only one who has questions and doubts about your religion.

You aren't the only one who sometimes says things that really hurt other people.

You aren't the only one who feels trapped in your marriage.

You aren't the only one who gets down and hates yourself and you can't figure out why.

You aren't the only one who hates your body.

You aren't the only one that can't control yourself around food.


Your wife is not the only wife that is mean and makes you hate yourself.

Why didn't somebody, anybody, put their arm around that 12-year old boy and let him know that they loved him and would always love him? What was he being told and taught that he would end his own life over something that almost no teenager can control? Maybe that beautiful and wonderful boy would still be alive if even one person had broken down the "Perfection" that completely controlled all those in his life from whom he desperately craved validation.

Why didn't somebody, anybody, tell a beautiful pregnant girl that there was nothing so big in life that it couldn't be made right. Maybe that incredible young woman would still be alive. Maybe her now one-year-old child would be learning to walk or say "Mommy" right now. Maybe.

Maybe.

The cure is so simple.

Be real.

Be bold about your weaknesses and you will change people's lives. Be honest about who you actually are, and others will begin to be their actual selves around you. Once you cure yourself of the disease, others will come to you, asking if they can just "talk". People are desperate to talk. Some of the most "perfect" people around you will tell you of some of the greatest struggles going on. Some of the most "perfect" people around you will break down in tears as they tell you how difficult life is for them. Turns out some of the most "perfect" people around us are human beings after all, and are dying to talk to another human being about it.
You'll love them for it. And you'll love yourself even more.

Let's not forget this quote: "I went out to find a friend and could not find one there. I went out to be a friend, and friends were everywhere."

"Perfection" infects every corner of society. It infects our schools. It infects neighborhoods. It infects our workplaces. This is not to say that there aren't a lot of genuinely, happy people. I am one of those people. Most of the time. There is nothing more beautiful than a person finding true happiness in who they are and what they believe. No, this is not me trying to diminish the happiness in others. This is merely me pathetically attempting to put a face on a problem that I see everywhere but few people ever notice.

This is me, weeping as I write, asking the good people of the world to find somebody to put their arm around and be "real". This is me, wishing that people would realize how beautiful they are, even with all of their imperfections. This is me, sad and desperate for the girls in this world to love themselves. This is me, a very imperfect man, trying to help others feel a little more perfect by asking you to act a little less perfect.

Will you help me spread "Real"? Tell us below just how perfect you aren't. You never know who might be alive tomorrow because you were real today. You never know who needs to feel like they aren't alone in their inability to be perfect. Even if you comment as an anonymous guest, please comment. Tell what you struggle with. Tell a sad or dark secret. Get vulnerable. Get real. Let's see if we can get 10,000 people showing the world that we're not defined by perfection.

 If you want the people around you to start being real, you have to be real first. I believe in the power of numbers and that enough people reading it might actually help shake down a few of the problems we cause for each other. If it's your first time here, we'd love to have you follow . I promise it's not always this intense (or nearly this long). I'll post something really interesting next tym.So miss me till then...





Thursday, May 14, 2009

Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it lasts . We should stop making our lives complicated. Life is short so Break the rules ,forgive quickly , love truly , laugh constantly And never stop smiling : no matter how strange life is .Life is not always the party we expected to be but as long as we are here, we should smile and be grateful...

Saturday, April 25, 2009

Once upon a time a memory

Once upon a time a memory..
Once upon a time a girl..
Once upon a time a perfect life..
Once upon a perfect world...

On Valedictory Day

Delivering the farewell speech.....




On 14th Oct:Receiving the honours for the subject toppers' award

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Learning with Good-bye

After a while you learn the subtle
Difference,
between holding a hand
and chaining a soul,

And you learn that love doesn't mean
leaning and company doesn't mean

security,And you begin to learn that

kisses aren't contracts
And presents aren't promises,
And you begin to accept your defeats

With your head up and your eyes
Open,with the grace of a woman,not
The grief of a child,
And learn to build all your roads on
Today
Because tomorrow's ground is too
Uncertain for plans,
And future's have a way of falling
Down in midflight
And after a while,you learn
That even sunshine burns if you get
Too much
So you plant your own garden and
Decorate your own soul,
Instead of waiting for someone to
Bring you flowers
And you learn that you really can
Endure
That you really are strong
And you learn and learn
With every good-bye, you learn...

-Veronica Shoffstall






If u join lives rat race as if chased by death then u'll create sadness for urself



Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Creativity License:I've got it and you???

I would call myself as an easygoing,sociable and extrovert person.I believe i'm versatile to some exent coz' my passions drift from one area to the other.I can't be any specific and say that I'm interested in only this particular thing coz' my areas of interest vary at random.I'm passionate about writing as they help me to soothe over my problems and crowdiness of this modern world full of hectic schedules and running after to achieve your destiny which is equally an immensely indispensible part of life.Here are some of my creative pieces which have been appreciated by THT and published till date.I've presented them as below.Do check those and do comment on them which i strongly believe is extremely necessary for a writer to improve further and I'm sure you all agree to this rite???


Following is a list of my published articles in The Himalayan Times and Kathmandu Post so far....



S.No.
TITLEPUBLISHED ON
1.Acievement Classes(NEWS BRIEF)November 24,2005
2.Lets Explore(NEWS BRIEF)July 14,2005
3.Thrift Sale(NEWS BRIEF)October 20,2005
4.Let's get energetic(NEWS BRIEF)June 30,2005
5.Creative Shuvatarians(NEWS BRIEF)June 9,2005
6.Food and flower fest(NEWS BRIEF)May 19,2005
7.Seminar held(NEWS BRIEF)May 5,2005
8.Cultural exchange(NEWS BRIEF)February 24,2005
9.What Money can buy?(POEM)-Kathmandu PostMay 25,2003
10.A book with matter(BOOK REVIEW)January 13,2005
11.Stop PollutionAugust 11,2005
12.Debate Competition(NEWS BRIEF)August 18,2005
13.Let us celebrate(NEWS BRIEF)March 24,2005
14.Students raise Aids Awareness(NEWS BRIEF)December 15,2005
15.Bhanu Quiz held(NEWS BRIEF)July 21,2005
16.Taras get sporty(NEWS BRIEF)December 22,2005
17.Extempore Contest(NEWS BRIEF)December 8,2005
18.Taras Shine(NEWS BRIEF)November 17,2005
19.Opportunities galoreDecember 8,2005
20.A checklist for successs(Some Tips)June 30,2005
21.Share the bluesJune 9,2005
22.Tihar is round the colourOctober 28,2004
23.The Magic of a smileJanuary 27,2005
24.Memories RemainJune 5,2004
25.Ghost Train(POEM)-Kathmandu PostMay 11,2003
26.Trapped in StereotypesFEBRUARY8,2007
27.The Evergreen bandAPRIL 13,2006
28.A Young Girl's DiaryMarch 30,2006
29.Did You Know?April 28,2005
30.Did You Know?January 5,2006
31.Happiness lies in the heartJune 23,2005
32.Being more than parentsMarch 16,2006
33.All about X-masDecember 22,2005
34.Learning the mounteneering ropesFebruary 9,2006
35.Mark new year with new beginningsDecember 29,2005
36.
Festival of coloursMarch 24,2005

37.Keeping it safe for our kidsNovember 23,2006

38.3.Thank You for everythingJune 14,2007

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Contentment is the greatest possession
A leader is led by those whom he seeks to lead


AWeek or two break?

28th Feb 2009

Lately, I am more into writing self-reflecting post (emotionally and cognitively). This is merely due to my nearing-exam-period. Once you're forced to read lot of references (words, words and only words) for a certain period of time, this is what happen:
  • Long blog post with words
  • Less or no picture
  • Mostly about my feeling and thinking
I guess, this kind of post may bore you since I realized that most of you (in fact, me, myself) prefer post with photos and short words. Well, don't worry. Boring posts will not last long because this exam-fever-period will end.. SOON! Yeah! I just can't wait...

Posts for travel, food, events and other 'fun' topics will be blogged after my final exam (like what I have predicted -my blogging style. Oh my.. I really can't wait! I need a holiday!!!


I have already planned for my semester break (roughly) and I know, it is going to be my greatest holiday. Yeah. I know, you can't wait for my surprises neither. Well, all we get to do is to wait till MAY!

Another few more weeks and then, I WILL BE FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!


Emmm....
Maybe I should get a week break. Or maybe two. It is better for me to stay away from my blog before I am done with my revision? Well, let see how far is my progress... :)


For all my loyal readers:

Thanks for always keeping in touch with my progress. I feel motivated whenever I receive your visit and comments. You guys are too lovely to be forgotten. *hugs*


I will try to bring in more juicy, spicy and interesting posts once I am done with my final preparation. Wait! Or maybe you can let me know what kind of post you find interesting in my blog? Of course, I know this is my blog and the decision on what kind of post I blog should depend on me. However, I feel that it is good to receive your suggestion and opinion since you meant so much to me.
Right?

So people...
I will be back, adding spice to your life again!
Miss me..








 Carry a heart that never
hates

Carry a smile that never
fades
 

Carry a touch that neve

hurts

 Carry a love that never
    dies

        
Carry a relationship that never
   breaks


every Good child hates Annotation!!
In schools usually where art exams take place every kid resents is annotation and thats what is exactly same wit meh!!! having to 'explain' your thought processes, after all, is an unnatural act and runs against our better instincts.

nothing kills the act of creation like dry analysis. once you start relying on pure methodology over instinct, you're a dead duck.

once you've lurked around in the background for a while you start to realise - the exam system isn't set up to make things easier for the kids, or even the teachers. its set up to make things easier for the bureaucrats - grading just becomes a matter of ticking boxes, as does the kids work. they're taught to follow a procedure.

this bleeds into higher education as well. a lot of college kids don't want to work things out for themselves. they just want to know what steps they need to follow to get the grades, to reach the correct conclusion.

there's the fear of course, that if you follow your instincts you'll make mistakes. but mistakes are the only way you really learn, down deep where it matters. like someone said, the only thing you can do is learn to fail better.

which is a long winded way of saying i'm writing up the summary of sth and its slightly tedious, ha ha. of course, as adults we have to communicate effectively and share our ideas. that's how we grow. but once this time i'd like to do something without explanation, keep back some of the mystery, leave folks guessing.


Take into account that great love and great achievements involve great risk.When you lose don't lose the lesson